Smeriously.....
I dunno why I fell in love in the 1st place.... but it makes me feel so happy whenever his around.... but we're just friends, i hate him but i love him so much. I can't help to accept the fact that he already had someone else..... benci tapi sayang, benci memang maknanya sayang.....
NO!!! I MUST NOT!!! I should be happy for him.... yes... I should.... he is just only and ONLY my friend...........
OH F**K THIS!!!!
Im shivering to my bones typing all this after see his pictures in facebook, and I really saw his status saying "In a Relationship"
Oh god, im so afraid loosing him..... I really really do. I admit it, I am very sad loosing him. Seeing him with someone else really hurts me. Before this, im ok coz at least he found someone else he really likes instead of me. Zul was right, I am an IDIOT!! For not confessing him since long time ago.... but i know even if I confess to him earlier, he would still say "Your a really good friend to me"
I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I hate you I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU!!....... But I can't hate you forever, you are such a great friend to me, I would give you my all.... but i couldn't. I know Im different, weird, bad temper, emotional, TOO NICE, FAT, emo, not physically beautiful, not mentally genius/smart, not perfect (even to my mum)...............
but......... please la Ya Allah s.a.w .............. enough bad luck that I have right now.... I 've been cursed with bad luck since Ramadhan already!
My best friend is dead and his fiancee is accusing me for this! My mum always say IM FAT AND NOT BEAUTIFUL! Mummy wouldnt let me see Abah just coz I want to go back Desaria too early! That stupid stalker guy is trying to hurt my friends!! My laptop is busted! I couldn't finish all my assignments! And most of all...... I really really miss Mohsen, Azam, Rara, Gavin, Kevin, Ili, Ash, Bryan, Yatt Weng, Sam, Kenvin and Daniel.... I really do!! I miss hanging out with all of them like we always do.... but for the sake of my friends safety I have to avoid them for a while and solve this stupid fucking problem once and for all.... I don't want my friends to get hurt....
I never had real friends till I come to LKW.... they don't lie to me that they like me so much as a friend, they're honest, they're the one who I trust my life with.
Some of my ex-friends leave me after they're all in a realtionship, somewhat pretend that they never met me before.... and just ignoring me. They even put the same pranks every year on me... pretend to be my secret admirer, pretend that they are in love with me.....
Aku nak kasih sayang juga, aku nak seseorang juga, seseorang yang aku boleh panggil buah hatiku juga
Im not jealous of Daniel and his GF..... Im very happy for him. But Im so sad, so so sad..... let this bad luck go on till it rans out.... If its already written that Im living in Bad luck, then be that way GOD, be that way till the day I die.... I will have no one....
what am i saying?.......................... I have to move on.... forget bout him.... but he is one of my good friends....
Ili, Bryan, Ash, Yat Weng, Sam, Kenvin, Mohsen, Azam, Rara, Gavin, Kevin, Hassan, Grace, Bella, Jonathan, Zach, Amin, Doriun, Dhamah, Nicole, Nina, Dhurrah...... and Daniel....
I miss you all so much
And Daniel, I love you and Goodbye.
i know that u will find someone better than him..and if u have problem u can just tell me or us ok??
ReplyDeletei know if i have problem i will talk to u guys... that's why im so thankful to have you guys as my friends
ReplyDelete*salutes* no prob XD
ReplyDeleteat least u'd better be enjoying this year now