I forgot how long has it been

I forgot when was the last time I celebrate Raya with my relatives in Perak.... I've been celebrating in Sabah ever since the divorce, and I always remember about my Abah every 1st day of Raya. I always miss him SO dearly everytime his not around on Raya... but seriously, I forgot how long has it been. After so many years, I finally celebrate Raya in Perak, It's a good thing my holiday only for 4 days, don't wanna waste anymore time. MUST DO ASSIGNMNETS!

Few months ago, I remember Abah told me Mummy already know I'll be celebrating here, but few weeks later, mum sounds like she doens't know I'm not leaving to Sabah for Raya.... which scares me coz I know everytime there's something that mum doesn't like, mum will deffinitely start arguing again, and calling Abah and arguing again on the phone, and I'll be depressed, blah blah blah, blah blah blah blah and it goes round and round and round and round...... How long will this last I wonder.

But thank GOD! Yesterday Mummy actually already knew..... huish! I feel like my soul was about to pulled out of my chest.... But has been a VERY LONG TIME since I last celebrate here in Perak.... I forgot how it was like to celebrate here, Im gonna miss Mama' though..... I hope she'll stay healthy and well when I'm away.